I Tried, But it Was Still There

Last night me and Maya went to bed in my room and it started out as our usual routine. She got in, I got in beside her and then she started crying. So I talked to her and we were talking about relations and stuff like that. Then she sat up and put her back against the wall and I got on the other side and copied her. She just sat there crying really hard, so I put a pillow on her. "What's this for?" she asked. "It's a pillow, if you get sad, punch it!" I smiled. She stared at it for a few seconds and then she randomly started beating the pillow. It kinda reminded me of one of the times I was there when Lucas was hitting her like that. I didn't say anything, she was in a big enough mood. Then randomly she stopped punching the pillow and her head fell into it and she started crying again. I watched her for a few minutes then decided this was enough. "Hey! Why don't we watch a funny movie!" I suggested and got off the bed. I was digging in the movie bin for something that would cheer her up. I found the first Toy Story movie and had the feeling she was it when she was younger and it would bring back good memories of when she wasn't always fighting these fights everyday. "This will bring back good memories!" I smiled putting it in. Then to make the situation worse, she found her and Riley's matching teddy bears and looked at them and she wasn't crying, she was just sitting there for the moment. Then she pulled them to her and hugged them, bursting out in tears. Having those stupid bears wasn't helping her. "Why isn't that ones hood up?" I asked. She pulled them out of my reach and gave me a dirty look. "Because it doesn't go up!" she cried. I put my hands up and turned away, I wasn't trying to be mean. She started crying and crying again. "Hey look Maya! Remember these commericals!" I smiled. She looked up and saw some weird fairytale commerical playing. "Guess what fairytale it is!" I suggested. "I-I don't know" she said. "I don't know what it is but I recognize these commercials" she said blankly. She started crying again just as the TV commericals said "Coming to DVD Fall 2001" and I looked at her. "Hey! Maya, you weren't even born yet, look!" I said. She turned to see the old-fashioned "Fall 2001" writing on the tiny TV. Then adventually the movie began to play. Crying she was, I tapped her and called "The movie's starting!" and for once, she looked up with big beaty eyes and pulled the teddy bears to her without crying. It came the part where Woody was being replaced with Buzz and the sad song was playing for Woody. "Woody is being replaced with Buzz, just like I was being replaced with Farkle" she cried. I sighed. Every 10 minutes, there was some part of the movie that reminded her of Riley and she just kept saying it. "It's like when...." she went on and on and on. I thought I was going to die. Adventually I just said "Just watch the movie, Maya" and she looked at me and realized what she was saying. "Hey remember Sid!" I called when Sid first appeared in the movie. "Oh yeah" she said. "That's Sid, he tortures toys, just for fun!" the dinosaur toy said in the movie. "Riley tortures me for fun" Maya remarked. I slapped my head, this wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. "This isn't Riley, it's Sid" I said pointing to the TV. "Does Sid look at all like Riley?" I asked her frustrated. "They both have brown hair" she shrugged. I almost blew my top off, but I didn't wanna make her cry again, so I decided to just watch. Then when it got to the part where they were at the Pizza Planet place in that giant space ship. "Who's in charge?" Buzz said to the green ailen toys. "The claw!" they all exclaimed pointing up. "The claw decides who stays and who will go" on of the ailens said. Then the claw went down and a ailen got picked up. "I have been chosen" the ailen in the claw said. That was one of my favorite parts. "I wish I was chosen" Maya cried. And there it was. I tried, but the Riley stuff, it was still there. Then it came to the part where Buzz and Woody were in Sid's house and talking to the other toys through the window. "Come on guys, please let me back!" Woody called. They refused to let him back because he knocked Buzz out the window earlier. "They all used to love Woody, now everyone hates him. Just like everyone used to love me and now Riley and everyone hates me" Maya said. I was fed up with Maya's "I miss Riley" talk. So then the movie started freezing up and you could barely tell what was happening. Then it completely fasted forward and skipped 12 minutes and we got to the part where Woody and Buzz were going to the moving truck. "Everyone loves Woody again, I wish that would happen to me too" Maya cried. "Yeah..." I said in an annoyed voice. "Ooh, look characters are talking, pay attention" I said looking at the TV, anything to get out of this conversation. Then the movie ended and we watched 2 minutes of the creidts when Maya got up to turn it off. "No, let's watch it!" I cried. "No, then we'll get that stupid credit song stuck in our heads" she said turning it off and getting back in bed. So that is what happened and if I ever have to hear another one of those conversation topics, I will be the one crying, not Maya. So bye bye!

Had She Always Meant to Say?

You won't believe what I found out last night. Riley couldn't sleep in the bed with Maya, so she went and sat by the window and Maya fell asleep and then for no reason, Lucas showed up without Farkle and talked to Riley, which woke me up. "Hey do you guys mind, little boy trying to get 10-12 hours of sleep here!" I said sitting up. "Why is he here?" I asked when I opened my eyes. "He couldn't sleep either so he came over and we were just talking" Riley explained. I realized that if they are there and Farkle isn't here, than it is likely Riley isn't making Maya feel great with having Lucas come over like she did something wrong. I climbed down and shook Maya who was sleeping. She was almost sitting up, but I kept shaking her and banged her head on the wall. "Maya are you awake?" I asked as I banged her head back. "Ouch! I am now" she said rubbing her head. I don't know but at random times she acts all weird and does very stupid things and I don't know why. So this time she decided to rub wet lotion all over her head full of hair because it was bruised. Why does she do these things!? Why? She isn't always like that, but at random times she is, it's weird. I don't even know what causes it or anything. So she told me I was the 3rd person to bang her head into a wall, I remember one being Farkle a while ago and considering how many times Lucas hit her, I am going to go with the other one was him and then the third one was me. When she went to lay down, she smacked her own head on the wall and counted herself as the 4th person to do it, even though it was an accident. And then she felt bad because Riley invited Lucas over and that only happens when they are fighting and she claimed it happened the night before and she is sick of Riley treating her like they are fighting when they are not. Like the night before Riley ditched her for no good reason and last night she acted as if they got into a fight and were doing those teams. So then randomly after a while, Riley and Lucas went into Riley's room and me and Maya stayed in mine. "They left" I said looking at Maya. She turned half to face me and said "You think I don't know that" when I realized she probably knew it before I did. So she sat there crying and I asked her what was wrong. "She literally said over text 'I won't do ditch you again, promise' and then 24 hours later we walk into the same situation, the same story, I've seen it all! You don't have to bother telling me what happens next" she cried. I didn't know what to say. "Does it ever look like I want attention?" she asked me. Again, I didn't know what to say. "No" I said silently. "Does it really?" she asked again. "Well, sorta...sometimes I guess" I responded. "Well I don't mean it like that, that isn't what I've always meant to say" she replied. She looked straight at me, it kinda freaked me out for a second. "I don't want attention, I just want love" she said. She sounded like some 1800's quoter for books made from typewriters. "I don't care if everyone pays attention to me, I just want the people I care about to care about me" she added. "Oh" I said, I still had no clue what to respond to that. It went silent and we just sat there. Then she randomly started crying so hard out of the blue. "What?" I asked sincerly. "I have nobody to cry to anymore, my mom is a mess and my dad has another family, my best friend needs a monthly payment and now I have nowhere to go" she cried. "Your best friend needs a monthly payment?" I asked confused, I didn't understand what was going on inside her head, I didn't know what that meant. "What is a monthly payment, Auggie?" I asked. "Where you pay money every month" I said. "Yeah, okay and it is something that you give people to have something that everyone deserves anyway, like a house" she explained. "She wants me to pay her, maybe not in money, but she wants something for being my friend, that is what I mean" she added. I understood completely now, it made perfect sense. Who has to buy friendship? If Riley makes people pay for their friendships with her, who is she ever gonna meet that is desperate enough to actually do that? Someday, it won't be us, it will be her and the world and those people aren't like Maya, they can walk away and not see her for years and they'd be just fine, no matter how much she loved them. Which she only ever loved Farkle anyway, since October Maya meant nothing to her and if Maya's reading this, that is not to be offensive. Maya, she knew that. Maya knew it, she did. She's said it all over her blog. So my advice to anyone who is reading the words of wisdom of this 5-year-old child, I would like to say don't be like Riley and don't make people pay for their friendships because nobody will actually stay with you. Oh and don't be like Maya either, don't be willing to pay for friendship, that should be a given people. And if people are making you pay for friendship, only staying if there is something in it for them, then do what Maya should've done 3 months ago and walk away and go finds friends that will love you for you and not because you pay them. This has been Auggie Matthews and my wonderful words of wisdom, thank you all and good night! (Even though it is 10:00 in the morning)

Kiwi's Christmas Present For Me

Guess what!? Mommy and Daddy just got home from their meeting with the church and they got their car towed because Daddy's driving liscence was suspended and they said he signed and knew his drivers liscence was suspended because he signed papers saying he knew he was suspended but he didn't sign anything. Then Mommy made me diner when she got home, but Riley and Maya didn't want anything. Then when I was eating one of my fries, and then I wanted to see if Kiwi, Riley's adorable pet hamster (who is fat) would eat a fry. So I put the fry near him and he put about 2cm of it in his mouth. Then I pulled it out and told Riley to eat it. "No!" Riley disagreed. "Fine" I smiled and then ate it myself. "Is hamster syliva poisoness?" I asked. "Yeah" Riley said and I spit out my fry. Riley googled it and hamster syliva contains Rabies a life-threatning disease. Only 2 people in world's history have ever survived rabies. They said online that I should clean my mouth with soap, so I did. Then Riley and Maya said I am only allowed to drink from one juice jug and nothing else. Not even a cup. So now I am only allowed to drink stuff from that juice jug. So I asked Mommy if I had rabies and she said no. Daddy, Grandma and Grampa were listening and Daddy and Grampa were laughing and Grandma looked shocked. Mommy said I didn't and it would be silly. So tomorrow I am telling Uncle Dion that I might have rabies. I wonder what he will say! So that was Kiwi's Christmas present for me. Kiwi got my rabies for Christmas. "Merry Christmas, Auggie" I saw the face of that hamster after I realized I may have rabies and I knew. Why wouldn't he get Maya rabies? Maya is the one who hates him. It would've been a coincadence if it was Maya because that would be Kiwi's revenge for her hating him. I mean, Maya hated Kiwi and Kiwi gets revenge by poisoning her with a life-threatning disease. But nope, it's me. Kiwi gave me rabies for Christmas. That is Kiwi's present for me. I could see his little face after he poisonded me and I knew that he was giving me my Christmas present early. Merry Christmas, Auggie, Merry Christmas.

That is the disease I just might have. Rabies. World Rabies day is September 28 and I may be remembered on September 28, 2015 when World Rabies Day comes around and Mommy, Daddy and Riley are remembering me. 

Auggie Matthews

(2009-2015)

It could happen.....

Their Messin' With My Mind!

Guess what? There has been a lot of stuff going on with Riley and Maya lately. They both keep trying to get me on their side, and I am always in the middle of it. I usually go on Maya's side because she is way more convincing with her "On the side of normal" speeches. Riley is always being not normal and everyone but her wants it to be normal so of course I am going to go on the side that supports what I want. So last night Riley said a mean 5 minute speech to Maya about how everyone she cares about (Delia/Cupcake, Me, Jamie etc.) are worthless and it is stupid of her to value them. But Maya started that one because Riley went to church normal with her and then Maya was afraid to be hurt again, so before Riley actually went ab-normal again, Maya framed her for it. Maya just didn't wanna be the one to say "I knew it, why did I believe it?" so she decided to not believe it. So she got a new best friend and made it really obvious that Riley was worse than her. And Riley didn't even do anything yet. Maya was just afraid to think she is stupid for falling for it. Shawn said that Riley doesn't care about Maya and she is caring too much (How can someone care too much?! That's stupid!) and she should stop being so nice (Again, stupid). So Shawn broke Maya and I held her hand the whole time though. Everyone just listened to Riley make her mean 5 minute speech. Nobody did anything. Daddy doesn't want to raise me like Riley. She makes mean speeches and neglects her best friend and would rather put romance ahead of her best friend, so Daddy tried really hard to teach me the lessons Riley never learned. Well, she did learn them VERY WELL when she was littler. But now she un-learned them. So Daddy wants me to learn like not how Riley did and he wants me to treat people 10,000x better than Riley does. But 10,000 times better than Riley is still pretty cruel. So 200,000 times better than her. Better. That is nice. So Riley and Maya keep doing this and putting me in the middle of it. Riley doesn't get that Maya could become her worst nightmare or if Riley cared about her as much as Maya does, they would be stronger than the episodes maybe even. I don't know, maybe. Is it even possible to get beter than that? Who cares...nobody wants more than that anyway. So and Maya needs to get that she is too afraid to apologize, too afraid of her apologies being annoying. She should actually try at least once before she judges that Riley will be annoyed of her. Oh, wait. This just in, Maya did that already in September....So the weather we are having in New York is beautiful today! Okay so anyway. Riley and Maya are messin' with my mind! They are like Ava! I miss Ava, wonderful, beautiful, amazing normal Ava. I'm not saying Ava is ab-normal, I just miss her because she is normal. Maya is trying to be, that's her goal at least I have that. Well anyway, 12 year old girls are too much to handle. Farkle has no idea how much he's involved in this and I think that is exactly how Maya intended it to be. She agrees. I am glad I am not a 12 year old girl, that would be way to much for me.

Happy 13th Birthday Riley!!

Good day everyone, my name is Auggie and today is December 8th 2014 which 13 years ago was December 8th 2001 which was the day my big sister was born! Riley is 13 years old today and I am very happy for the best big sister ever to finally become 13 and able to take better care of me now. She turned 12 one year ago and 11 two years ago. And 3 years ago she was 10. Now Riley is 13 years old and more matured. I am here to wish the bestest sister ever and super happy birthday, even if she had a bad day at school, which is what I heard. Sorry for being mean to you and ignoring you on your birthday, Riley. I hope you have the bestest birthday night ever!

This one seemed to suit her.

And that's all for my big sister, Riley! I hope you liked it because it took a looooooooong time to do. Searching for pictures and all. Have a happy happy birthday, Riley!! I hope being 13 years old is as fun as being five!!

What I Have Been Doing Lately

My friend Maya is 12 and she told me I need a new blog post. We are really bored. So were making me a new blog post. She already has 200 posts and more than 200 too. So now I am going to make my 4 post. So last night I left Mr. Googly in my room because I am sleeping in Riley's room because Riley and Maya were sleeping in mine because my bed is bigger than Riley's and they had to sleep in mine to fit both of them. So I left Mr. Googly in there and I had to go ask for him back. Only Maya was in there because Riley was "sick" (Maya told me to put that in kwotashons) and she was sleeping with mom and dad. So I asked Maya for Mr. Googly and she gave him to me. He was resting under her pillow. So I took Mr. Googly and went back to my bed. For the past 2 days Riley has been sick and Mommy had to watch her she couldn't take me to school. So Maya came home for lunch and she took me and picked me up. I told her on the way to school yesterday that I don't want to go to playtime because I never get the firetruck house because everyone else is always playing with it. Maya told me to ask to play with them and tell her after school if they let me. So she dropped me off and went back to her school. I went in and I asked my friends to play in the firetruck house with them and they let me! I was so happy and I did it again today. I told Maya after school and she was proud of me. So she told me about her day too and then we went home and had cookies! I love cookies! They are raindeer cookies! Yummy! So that is what I have been doing!

Hampster-Sitting But I Won't Sit On Him

Today Uncle Dion and mommy took me and Riley to Petland! Yay! Riley was going to get a pet fish. She looked at them and realized that a fish would be boring. She couldn't hold it or play with it. So she decided to get a teddy bear hampster. They start tiny. 1 fit in my hand and my hand is 5-year-old sized. I looked at the ferrets. I told the worker that my friend Maya had a ferret. Then me and Riley both held baby hampsters. They were so cute. We traded them and picked up new ones. Then mommy took us to look at cages. Riley was deciding on supplies she could get. Then mommy said I can't have one until I am older. I don't know why, I am this many. So, Riley gets a hampster in a month and she said she would let me babysit it. I said I don't want to sit on her hampster, it would be mean. She said I could take care of it when she is gone and I agreed that would be better. So, Riley gets to be a hampster mommy and I get to be a hampster watcher in a month. Yay! I cannot wait!

Auggie Matthews - Songs I Like

I have a playlist, just like Riley. It is called Auggie Matthews - Songs I Like. I know the lyrics to these songs. I have sang before when they came on the radio. I just listen to them because I don't have anything else to listen to. Here they are:

1. Bubbly by Colbie Calliat

2. Alive in this moment by Starfield

3. Blessings by Laura Story

The first one is the song that goes like, and it starts in my toes and it moves to my nose, wherever we go I already know. The next one is the one that goes like, I am alive in this moment in this moment I am found. The next one is the one that goes like, what if your blessings come througn raindrops what if your healing comes through tears. So, those are my favorite songs that I know the lyrics to! My favorite is Blessings, than Alive In This Moment and then Bubbly.

Auggie Matthews

My name is Auggie Matthews. I am 5 years old, born on March 20, 2009. I live in New York City, United States in an apartment building, number 29 with my mom, my dad and my sister Riley. She's 12 years old, but were still twins. I love Mr. Googly, it is my favorite TV show. I have a stuffy of him. It is big and my favorite stuffy! Mr. Googly is my best friend. I love ukranian pastries! I go to a bakery called Svorski's Bakery and Mrs. Svorski is the nice lady who pinches your cheeks. She always says It's not ukranian bakery, it's our-kranian bakery" it's classic!! Haha! I don't get it...My dad gave me a spy card. I am his little spy. He promoted me to a super-spy! I spy on Riley and mommy and tell daddy what is going on with them. I love coloring with my mom and dad. I want to get a real phone, so I color with them so they will get me one. I can speak and sing in French. It is very easy. I have a girlfriend. Her name is Ava. She's this many. 6 years old. She's an older woman. She likes cheese and Mr. Googly, just like I like Mr. Googly.

That is me, my mommy and daddy at our kitchen table. I am the one in the light blue shirt.

That is me and my mom reading animal stories.

That is my daddy promoting me to a super-spy!

That is me and Mrs. Svorski, the lady who runs the bakery.

That is me and the monster under my bed's toy. He stole Mr. Googly so I stole his toy. But we traded back. We were friends, until he wasn't allowed to have friends.